Setting the record straight.

Its been a while since I’ve updated the blog, but here we are. If anything, you guys can always count on me to share my thoughts via this blog regarding things in the music industry that affect me directly. I’ve been transparent about my past experiences and have decided to do so today, to a certain extent. I’ve bit my tongue in a lot of “Techno Twitter” conversations this summer, but this was something I could not let slide, so hear me out if you will.

While I think these DM conversations and accusations are valid, let’s not treat the man behind the FB threads, Michael James as some hero. He has bad-mouthed me in FB posts, called me a “fake journalist girl,” and most recently leaked private information from a brief conversation I had with him back in February without my permission. Being that he was playing the role of someone genuinely concerned about women’s safety, I confided in him. What I got in return was him posting screenshots of parts of our conversation online. This act was extremely hurtful and done in response to me not coming forward publicly with the private information I shared with him. He did not share our entire conversation, but it’s clear he intended to make me look bad. After reading this, I will not be surprised if he chooses to air our entire conversation. I’ll state right now that that is totally against my wishes, but I don’t expect much else from a person who thrives on shaming people to make himself feel important and look like a savior.

He’s attempted to make a mockery out of my career as a DJ and Journalist simply because I didn’t come forward when he wanted me to. As someone subjected to sexual harassment in a professional setting, I now feel even more ashamed about the entire experience. I also feel like a fool for sharing it with Michael James, thinking I could trust him. The private information from our conversation should have been shared by ME when I was ready, not by him, to help speed up his DM investigation. He was never wholeheartedly concerned about my well-being; his concern was my story giving his accusations some traction. I became disposable once I was no longer useful to him. 

Interestingly enough, in his latest attempt to “expose” me, he no longer referred to me as a “fake journalist.” His argument for posting our private conversation online is that it was my “responsibility” as a journalist to come forward with MY EXPERIENCE. He also attempted to place blame on the publication I was freelancing for the day of the incident for not sharing the information. Again, this was MY experience to share. I’m comfortable with how the publication handled the situation. None of this information is Michael James’ business; neither is it a “cover-up” on our part as he is suggesting. It’s appalling that a man who is aware of an uncomfortable position I was faced with as a woman in the industry would make things EVEN MORE uncomfortable and unsafe by doing this to me. Going as far as making comments like “I’m the leader she wished she was.” If this behavior in itself isn’t an attack on a woman, I don’t know what is. It sucks to see people applauding his tactics because I was not okay with him sharing my story or our conversation whatsoever. 

As many of you know, being a woman in the music industry can be shitty at times. Coming forward regarding sexual harassment or abuse is not easy, and not something all victims are willing to do. Yes, there is somewhat of a reckoning happening regarding sexual assault and abuse, but that doesn’t mean we force victims to come forward, or victim-blame them if they don’t. And honestly, the treatment I received from Michael James is another reason women keep quiet; it’s like either way you lose. I’m subject to ridicule if I share my story, yet I’m also subject to it for not coming forward. It’s all just so disheartening. Again, the DM conversations are necessary, but I don’t think someone like Michael James is fit to be the leader of the #metoo movement in techno. I would much rather hear from the multiple women he says he’s in contact with. The allegations against DM are serious, yet it’s troubling to me that the main person we’ve heard from thus far is Michael James- a man who is openly bitter about not being credited on DM’s Strings of Life track. 

From my initial finding out who Michael James was, I’ve seen him bad mouth numerous people involved in Detroit Techno, going as far as taking a picture of Submerge, posting it online, and making nasty comments about its appearance. He also slut shamed and harassed a woman online who was affiliated with DM, again, because she didn’t do what Michal James wanted her to do. Despicable behavior if you ask me. He also was swift to start sending me screenshots from other private conversations he’s had with people, trying to slander them; it all felt very gossipy. Honestly, a few minutes into our conversation, I was overwhelmed and realized that was probably not the best person to be speaking with; he was even suggesting things to me like chatting with a reporter who he claimed was working on a story. He was too overzealous about all of this way to quickly, and it didn’t feel right.

Contrary to what he said in his FB post about me, I did NOT suggest we talk on the phone; he offered up his number and told me to call him. It’s obvious he’s upset I decided not to. He wanted me at the forefront of these allegations and applied pressure- unsuccessfully. To make himself feel better about it, he decided to shame a black woman for the world to see. I think it’s very upsetting that this is the person championing this conversation when he has consistently displayed questionable behavior—even going as far as bringing my sister into the discussion, who has nothing to do with it. This is NOT okay. 

Another lie he stated was that I might even be interested in being signed to Transmat. Why on earth would I be thinking about that when I have close friends who own successful labels like NDATL, Sistrum, and Uzuri Recordings? And that’s only a few; I don’t need to name drop for clout. The point is, stop speaking lies on my name when you don’t have your facts straight. I’m a grown-ass woman, and I’m not with men talking recklessly about me EVER. Find out who I’m truly affiliated with since you’re so interested. For the record, I have NO affiliation with that label or the man in question. If Michael is the “investigative journalist” he claims to be he should know that already.

It was not easy for me to share even this much, but one thing I’m not going to do is let someone like Michael James lie on me or try to make a fool out of me. I’m an intelligent woman with massive respect in the community, and regardless of what happens, I know the majority will stick with me. I am deeply disturbed and saddened by the allegations against Derrick May and hope that truth will continue to come to light. Violence against women is never okay, and I hope these conversations will bring much-needed attention to ugly aspects of the music industry and women’s treatment. Yes, I spoke out on the Erik Morillo situation; it was very triggering, but not for a moment did that mean I had to share my experience as a woman in the industry relating to sexual harassment or assault. 

I’ve learned over the past few years; there are no icons and heroes in this music shit for me anymore; I’ve been let down a lot. Michael James is also not a hero, regardless of if some of his stories are credible. I regret ever speaking with him, and I hope he doesn’t do this to any of the other women he says he’s been talking with. As a black woman in the industry trying to contribute something positive, it truly feels shitty to have someone claiming they want to protect you take advantage of your vulnerability, and hold it against you. It’s trendy to say “protect black women” these days, but are you actually doing it? 

As always, I hold my head high, knowing who I am and that none of these fools out here can break me. Respect and protect women at all costs; we deserve so much better. 


An update from quarantine

Its officially week 2 of my quarantine and although the time hasn’t moved as slowly as I anticipated, I’m not exactly excited to spend another month like this. I’ve managed to keep “busy” around the house for the most part, but obviously am pretty stagnant in terms of work. I decided to pay my bills early this month just to get the stress out of the way, but with zero income coming in, I’ll definitely be needing to get back to work sooner than later. Although there is truly no way to tell at this point, I’d like to think I could be back to work somewhat by May. I know that may sound a bit ambitious, but I’m keeping an open mind. It’s going to be interesting to see how the next few weeks pan out to say the least. I did manage to complete a couple things that I’m proud of during my quarantine though, and for the most part, as long as I can keep creating I know I’ll be okay.

One of the things that I’m proud of is my “Social Deep Mix”, that I recorded on a whim mid last week.  When I get invited to do a guest mix for a large platform I usually put way too much thought into it and ending up having to start over numerous times. What I like about this mix is that I was recoding it for myself and didn’t quite have the intention of posting it. Since I ended up being happy with it, I decided to self-release on Soundcloud- overall there was no pressure. I also didn’t make any sort of playlist for this mix, which is something I typically do. I just searched through my drive, selected from various “deep” folders and went with it. Deep is pretty much the sound I do best, and definitely my favorite style of dance music. I know the term “deep house” had gotten pretty over saturated and lame at one point, but either you know the real shit or you don’t. There’s a lot of good deep house out there that gets overlooked, or just simply not played…I guess thats where my job comes in. The mix has been doing great though, and is almost at 1K plays after a week. I’m sharing the track list below since some have inquired. Thank you for the support, and big ups to all the artists included!

**Keep scrolling for links to a guide on creating your own DJ live stream and monetizing your Twitch account through Soundcloud!**


Baaz- Glim

Patrice Scott- Motions

Kai Alce- Closer

Make Yells, Black Loops- The Greatest (Kian T Remix)

Fred P.- Lush Life

Larry Heard- Guidance

Fred Everything- Winter Tones

Chaos in the CBD- Similar Stories

DJ Aakmael- Jazz Piece 2

DJ Aakmael- Beautiful

Delano Smith- Xscape

The It- Somebody Somewhere

Vincent Floyd- I Dream You

Stefan Ringer- Do U?

Ron Trent, Robert Owens- Deep Down (Ron Trent Dub)

I’ve been starting to see the social media critics giving their unnecessary two cents on the DJ Live Stream surge thats currently happening. I must admit, I was a little weirded out myself in the beginning. I’m not a fan of deejaying on camera because it really can be quite awkward, and with everyone and their mamma doing it, what would make mine special? I went back and forth with the idea until I came to the conclusion that if I do one, it would be in the most professional way possible. RA published a great guide last week covering all the basics you need to get your set-up up and running. I won’t lie, I’m not the most technical person out there, but this guide was very direct and easy to follow. I had things up and running properly in no time.

I decided to do my first live set yesterday from 2-4PM, and it went pretty well! A shame I was still somewhat nervous deejaying in my living room (hence the camera), but overall I truly enjoyed it. It was a great way to connect with the people who follow my work. I’m grateful to those who donated and tuned in live. I also now realize that doing a live- steamed, in home DJ set is basically a DJ “working from home”. If you can make a couple hundred bucks off of it, I truly don’t see a problem. I understand not everyone is comfortable or interested in doing one, but I’m dropping the link below just in case you are. I’m also open to answer any questions about the experience if you have any, just reach out! Also, Soundcloud recently partnered with Twitch to help DJ’s monetize their stream content, which is another way to make some extra cash. I’ll include the link to the information on that as well, the process is pretty simple.

How To Set Up A Livestream:

Soundcloud x Twitch:

Other than that, not too much is going on, just staying safe and trying to keep my head up out here, I hope you all are doing the same.

See you soon.

Ash ❤



When crisis brings out the ugly in people…

Covid-19 is in full swing, and a lot is going on in the world right now. Many still can’t comprehend it all. I just got back to the states from Europe yesterday after my entire DJ tour got canceled before it even actually began- I know many others can relate to some degree. And while some plan to lose more than others, this isn’t the time for comparisons; we’re all faced with the same harsh reality; significant income losses. This whole ordeal comes at an interesting time for me not only because I DJ and work in a gig-based economy, but also because I just left my full-time, decent pay, full benefits job just last month. The timing of my departure from the corporate world felt right regardless of losing my benefits and the guaranteed income; I worked hard to get to the point where I could sustain myself off music and was beyond excited to embark on the chapter. Sitting here today with the future of my DJ career unknown, I can’t say I now regret my decision to leave my job. In the weeks following my departure, the creative juices were flowing, and it felt amazing to live life on my terms only. Its day 1 of my quarantine since arriving back in the states. To say the least, my mind is racing.

What’s crazy about dealing with these worldwide emergencies in the modern day is that we are all still very much connected thanks to things like the internet, social media, and television. And while one would think our access to these resources would bring us together, it tears us apart in many cases. Over the past few days, I’ve witnessed some cruel reactions to those asking for financial assistance. I understand tensions are high right now, but it’s genuinely disappointing to read some people’s responses to those in fear or need. The way I see it; if you want to donate to a cause and its something you believe in, go ahead and do it. If its something you do not see fit to contribute to, don’t, and move on. Enough with the call-out culture and hot takes. Some of the behavior on these platforms is just as toxic as the damn virus itself. Why spread more negativity when we can offer support and understanding in a time of panic and confusion? It seems as if folks sit around and wait for the right moment to shame people, and when the opportunity strikes, all hell breaks loose. I even fell victim to contributing to the negativity online and had to stop and check myself; so many of us are acting off emotion whether than logic, and that’s one of the problems. It’s also eye-opening, yet not surprising, to see how people start acting when it comes to money matters.

I don’t know about every DJ out there, but I’ve never seen anything wrong with deejaying while also holding down a full or part-time job; many of us do it. What’s tricky, though, is being able to maintain the two successfully. From my personal experience, working full-time and deejaying was excellent in financial security, but it also meant that I was forced to turn down specific opportunities. It was also too exhausting at times. Most jobs won’t let you take time off to complete a DJ tour outside of the country, which is important when you are trying to get a global reach. It can also put a major strain on your ability to create as working full time in America takes up so much time and energy- usually, when I got home from work, I was drained mentally and physically and far from inspired. I say all of this to explain that it’s not always so simple to “get a job” or “keep a job” while also pursuing a full-time DJ career. I don’t think me leaving my job was irresponsible in the least bit, and I don’t believe that others in this same position are either.

On the contrary, I think that many are eager to jump into this life full time without a real back-up plan in the current day. That’s what many need to focus on right now. I hope that this 14 day or more quarantine will give us time to brainstorm just that.

Through all of this, I know many have been told to “stay strong,” which is right, we have to. But don’t be afraid to cry or even be a little angry; we need not ignore these emotions; addressing them has helped me keep my sanity. The past few days, I was so focused on “staying safe” and “being strong” that I hadn’t had time to address the sorrow I felt truly. No one has the right to question your hurt or struggle. Our passions, livelihoods, and futures are all in jeopardy right now; its okay to be worried about that. I do not suggest dwelling, but sometimes you gotta get through the hurt and crying phase to get to the action phase plan. It felt the most real for me yesterday as I got back to my apartment with all of my luggage in tow from what was supposed to be a 1-month tour in Europe. As I dragged my luggage and record bag up the sidewalk towards my building, the tears started to flow freely- it was a sobering moment I’m sure I won’t forget. My world isn’t over by any means, but after planning my last day at work with this tour in mind, and all that I had to look forward to in the months after no longer happening sucks. Nonetheless, now that I’m home and attempting to re-settle, I’ve been focused on what’s next. While there are plenty of high profile and highly paid DJ’s that can sit back and quarantine for even a few years easily if necessary, the reality for many of us isn’t as such.

I’ve seen the word “entitlement” thrown around a lot lately, and I couldn’t help but wonder if I too appear to be some entitled touring DJ crying about losing gigs and canceled travel? The reality, though, is that this situation is so much deeper than canceled gigs or flights; people are worried about their finances for the most part. That’s how real it is out here; some can’t afford to put all of their focus on health and safety right now because they could potentially be homeless in a month or two- its a scary thing to acknowledge. Rent, food, car payments, etc. unfortunately don’t get canceled, so yes, people are stressing. While most, including myself, plan to take care of ourselves and use what resources we have to get by for the next few months, we don’t know everyone’s situation; some are worse off than others. Let’s not judge and act as someone can find another job overnight. Who’s to say right now is even a good time for someone to find a job? With all the club, bar, school, and business closures, it might be a while before companies start hosting interviews again- we truly have no way of knowing right now. Stop the judging, stop the shit-talking, and think about something positive you can bring to this dark situation.

Speaking of positive, amid the madness, we thankfully have also witnessed solidarity and community-focused ideas brewing, that is precisely what we need more of; positivity and creativity. Many clubs and DJ’s have already started putting together live DJ streams from home or empty clubs, giving viewers the option to donate if they wish. Mix series are being created, producers are jumping back into the studio, and many are putting up merchandise for sale to collect funds to stay afloat as we sit in limbo.

All of that said, not all is lost yet. If you have anxiety about rent, don’t be afraid to reach out to your landlord to see if there’s anything you can work out; you never know, people might be willing to be a little more generous given the state of things. I plan not to give up, and I hope those reading this do not either. If you need to take a break from social media, DO IT. Social media causes so much unnecessary stress and anxiety that the only way to avoid it sometimes truly is to log off. Read a book, do some yoga, write in your journal, record a mix, talk of the phone, etc. We still have plenty of options for creativity within our own homes’ courtesy- let us not forget that. And while we all may be physically quarantined with no clubs, large gatherings, or festivals, the music remains. Music can never be contained, and for that, I smile.

Take care of yourselves out there.

Underground & Black’s Favorite Records of 2K19.

Well folks, it looks like we finally made it through another year. As always, I’ll be taking some time to talk about some of my favorite tunes that came out over the past 12 months. Most of the “EOY” lists that I’ve already skimmed over feel quite un-relatable, which is one of the reasons why I started doing my own list a couple years back. I do realize that what people like in terms of music is extremely subjective, so no shade to anyone. It’s actually been great seeing different artists and DJ’s listing some of their favorite music of the year as well. What I will say though, is that it appears (to me) that many of the people writing, reviewing, and talking about dance music on these larger platforms are NOT black. In 2020 I’d like to see some major improvements in diversity in dance music journalism, and I plan to be contributing to the cause. There are still so many of us who’s voices should and need to be heard. Never bitter, yet simply motived to make positive change. In closing, I just want to say thank you to all of you for taking the time to read and support this blog, it means a lot. Also, a big thank you to all of the talented people who create this powerful music that is telling the story of my existence- you are appreciated!

  1. Stefan Ringer- SO

Stefan Ringer came out with the second release on his Atlanta based label “FWM Entertainment” in May 2019. The EP includes 3 original tracks with “SO” being the standout track of the release- I can’t even begin to count the number of times I heard this track played throughout the course of the year, and each time a crowd favorite. This is one of those magical tracks that must be played in full and has been described as “instantly exciting”.

2. Theo Parrish feat. Maurissa Rose- This is for You

In late 2019 Parrish dropped “This is For You” on his “Sound Signature” imprint, and some are already calling it his best work to date. The single features Detroit based vocalist Maurissa Rose, who’s warm vocals accompany the track effortlessly. “This is for You” showcases the evolving instrumentation that Parrish can be known for, and paired with the almost lullaby like vocals from Rose you’re in for a real treat- this one is an instant classic.

3. Patrick Gibin- Cloud Nine feat. Mdcl & Javonntte

Italian DJ and Producer Patrick Gibin started off the new year right with “Eglo’s” first release of 2019. The EP titled “Cloud 9” showcases those warm and soulful sounds that are somewhat synonymous with my personal sound as a DJ. With Mark de Clive-Lowe on keys, and Detroit hero Jovonntte on vocals, there’s not much more soul one could ask for! This one got a lot of play out of me this year.

4. The Vision feat. Andreya Triana- Heaven (Danny Krivit Edit)

Danny Krivit’s edit of ‘Heaven” by The Vision was an instant summer hit, interweaving a funky baseline with Andreya Triana’s powerful vocals. I heard this track first on a recent Boiler Room performance by Joe Clausell and knew instantly I needed this one in the collection. The EP also features another edit by Krivit for The DangerFeel Newbies “What am I here for, Original NDATL Vocal”, which was a hit here in Atlanta and beyond.

5. Ed Nine- Deep Concentration

The Chicago based producer showcases the sound he does best; deep. The 3 track EP dropped on “NDATL” in late December and rounds up a year of impeccable releases from the Atlanta based label.

6. Lady Alma and The Rainmakers – Let it Fall (DJ Spinna Galactic Soul Remix)

Honestly, who doesn’t love a “Galactic Soul” remix from Spinna? The Brooklyn legend put his signature twist on the anthemic “Let it Fall” by songstress Lady Alma and the outcome was magic. For a better showcase of his work on the key’s check out the instrumental version. The vinyl is unfortunately (and unsurprisingly) SOLD OUT via his Bandcamp, but you can easily grab the digital via Traxsource or Beatport.

7. Waajeed feat. Ideeyah, DeSean Jones & Khristian Foreman- Let Your Love

Waajeed doesn’t seem to rest when it comes to putting out new and quality music, and the “Hocus Pocus EP” is by far some of my favorite work of his to date. The 4 track EP came out on London based “Deviation Music” in October and has been getting its fair share of play worldwide. One of my favorites on the EP is “Let Your Love” where fellow Detroiter Ideeyah contributes the vocals.

8. DJ Kemit, Carl McIntosh, Kai Alce- Digital Love (Remix)

A personal favorite that I played many times this year, “Digital Love Remix” came out on “Sound Signature” in May and showcases soulful sounds and vocals complied by DJ Kemit, Kai Alce, and Carl McIntosh.

9. Acemo feat John F.M.- Where They At???

A crowd favorite and club banger, Acemo dropped “Where They At???” featuring John F.M. on his release “All My Life” that dropped early in the year. With John F.M. on MC duties, he shouts out everyone from single mothers to the big girls- and who couldn’t love with a track that features one of House Music’s most classic baselines; 1993’s “Show Me Love” by Robin.

10. LadyMonix- Track 39

Ladymonix did it again this year, dropping the second release on her “Frizner Eletric” Detroit based label that she founded in 2018. Far from a stranger to U&B’s top pics, the 4-track release titled “Track 39 EP” invites us to dance-floor with sassy vocals and house beats reminiscent of Strictly Rhythm in its heyday, yet with a modern twist. Continue to keep an eye on this Detroit via Baltimore queen in 2020!


Keeping It Real…

It’s Tuesday, and I still haven’t been able to shake this whole “cornrow” situation that blew up on Twitter regarding NK. My anger is rooted in her reaction to the backlash, not the action of wearing the hairstyle. Correct everyone makes mistakes, but how one goes about the situation, in the end, is what can deem one noble. The case here is that NK feels she did no wrong; therefore, she will never take responsibility for her offensive actions. There wasn’t a drop of nobility to her response to the backlash, which is essential because most of it came from the same black and brown people in the community she claims to care for. Her excuses, invalid points, and retweets from clueless supporters shined a bright light on her white supremacy and entitlement. Rather than listen and attempt to have a constructive conversation about her use of the term “ghetto” and cultural appropriation, she jumped right into defense mode. The straw that broke the camel’s back for me was her having the audacity to call one of the most dedicated people to diversity in the scene right now, who also happens to be a black woman, a racist. That’s the point when I lost all respect.

“How dare you speak to me this way” NK tweeted in response to one of the tweets critiquing her actions. It’s clear to me that this woman has never had anyone check her ass, and she folded under pressure- I, for one, am not surprised. People like her spend their careers profiting off black culture, yet when it comes down to it, our concerns are invalid to them. This entire situation reflects that. These are the same type of folks who will run around screaming “black lives matter,” yet when it’s time to a be a real ally MF’s are SILENT. Personally, what I want to know is, where are all of the top white feminist DJ’s in this conversation? The social justice warrior types who always have something to say about every political thing yet won’t use their platform and white privilege to denounce their peers’ inappropriate actions. Again, not surprised. When sticking up for black people is convenient, everyone is on top of it, but I suppose this situation isn’t the most convenient one (being the power of the woman in question), so they don’t say shit. Isn’t that a bitch?

This entire situation has been equally draining and nauseating. I like to consider myself a strong person, but I won’t lie, this situation has hit me to my core. It’s one thing to have internet trolls coming for me, but for another black woman and DJ that I at one point admired and looked up to, go at me publicly telling me that I’m speaking out on all of this in hopes of “attention” or “accolades” is disappointing. My initial tweet on this topic (that just happened to blow up on Twitter), received way more attention than I imagined. I was in a heated mental state and typed the first thing that came to mind. I don’t need attention, I’m not a hater, nor am I jealous. I’m a black woman who is passionate about my culture, dance music, and braids for that matter- I rock them about 60% of the time. I’m wondering if this person, someone I’ve known for years and is a fellow black woman, would have had my back the same way had I been in question about something? Now I’m not here to disrespect anyone, but I am indeed a grown-ass woman who is not afraid to speak to my mind. As I mentioned above, the silence and ignorant statements from many on this issue are VERY telling. Scary to think that these are some of the same folks we rub elbows at clubs and festivals worldwide.

As a black woman who wears cornrows regularly, I find pride and strength in rocking the style, and it often feels like a form of resistance against the white society that tells me I need to wear my hair straight to be accepted. Perhaps this is what makes the topic a sensitive one because, to me, the style is not merely a fad or a costume for the night- it’s my heritage. Here’s a quick story for reference; when Resident Advisor reached out to me to contribute to their infamous podcast series I was elated, I felt like it would be the perfect opportunity for me to put some shine on my DJ career. When it came time to select a photo to accompany the podcast, I immediately told myself I would go with one of my more “polished” photos wearing straight hair- I said to myself this was “prettier” and would draw more attention to the mix. I soon realized how stupid I was being and that I was playing into society’s preference for European beauty standards. Eventually, I said the hell with it; I’m going to rep for the culture like I’ve been doing, I mean, that is what my platform, Underground & Black is all about. So yeah, the decision to use a picture with me wearing cornrows was a conscious one, one that was rooted in much more than merely being “cool,” “badass” or “ghetto” for the night. At the end of the day, though, I realize that no matter how shitty NK’s cornrows looked, me, a black woman in the same industry with the same style, would never, and will never receive the same amount of love and compliments for doing it.

Why is it so often that white people get applauded for doing the same things that black people have been doing for centuries? It’s genuinely absurd how so many seem to be completely unaware of how frustrating it is for black people. We literally cannot have ANYTHING to ourselves. We live in a world where people get upset that we get one measly month to celebrate our culture. We live in a world where non-black people think it is acceptable to use the “N” word simply because we do. We live in a world where non-black people profit off our culture, language, music, style, etc., every day, all the while, many of us still struggle on the sidelines. White people run our society, have a much better chance at successfully navigating through this tainted world, and are somehow still upset about black people wanting to keep certain things solely in our community. The white entitlement is clear as day, and way too many folks feel so openly entitled to everything.

This is the world we live in, and I realize some of you will never know what it’s like to be a black man or woman living in a white man’s world. From day 1 of stepping into DJing, I knew I’d never be the most popular or make the most money even if I indeed was the best at it, and honestly, I’m okay with that. Unbeknownst to some, I’m not in this game for fame and fortune; I’m in this shit because of my passion. Since I am a black woman born and raised in Detroit, this is my roots, my upbringing- I’ve been involved in this shit since I was a kid, and it’s important to me that folks know that. That they know my sheer commitment to everything dance music related, whether it be this very blog, my radio show, an interview I conduct, or a black artist I book. I am someone out here making an actual contribution, as is Frankie of Discwoman, yet here we are being shaded for speaking out on what is right and what is wrong. The irony.

A lot of people genuinely do not understand the concept of bullying. Holding someone accountable for shitty mistakes is NOT bullying. A critique of someone’s careless actions is not hating or reflecting what someone thinks of this person’s musical ability. People are turning this thing into something that is not without realizing the bigger picture, which is that this conversation is much bigger than NK. It is is not the first and not the last time this discussion will happen; trust me.

As I wrap all of this up, I want to say, LISTEN. Listen when black people or minority groups get offended about specific words, behaviors, or actions; show us the respect of hearing us. Writing us off and ignoring our concerns is not conducive to growth and understanding. Also, if you call yourself an “ally,” stand up for us. SAY SOMETHING. White silence on these sorts of issues is one of the main reasons why things like cultural appropriation bother us. This idea that it’s okay to mimic black people when its time to look “cool” and “have fun,” but when shit gets real many of yall are nowhere to be found. I could talk about this shit all day, to be honest, but I’m choosing to move forward. Many of us have our points, and thank you to those that stood up and showed solidarity. The black community came together on this, and we must remember to come together ALL OF THE TIME, not just when these types of battles arise.

It was vital for me to use my platform to talk about this because we all know every other outlet is going to tiptoe around it and wait for it to blow over just like every other “Techno Twitter” battle. These are valid discussions, and the work doesn’t stop with this post. All of my Underground & Black projects have been about CELEBRATING and INSPIRING, and that is what I plan to continue to do. And hey, if I have to call bullshit on certain things from time to time, I’m down for that. Although my blackness may be a trend and novelty to you, it is not to me, and I take it very seriously. I am not shocked to see how offended some get when a black woman speaks her mind; that’s how the story goes! Today, I still stand head high, knowing that I got the cities of Detroit and Atlanta behind me. I’m going to keep doing me yall.


A weekend across the pond.

I know I often used to start these things with my regret about not updating the blog enough, so this time I’ve decided to not go that route. What I will say though, is that I’ve missed this outlet, and it feels good to be back. It also feels good to be back in Atlanta chillin’ at my favorite coffee shop on a Friday off from work. I have the next 3 days free from my day job, as well as the weekend off from DJing, so I definitely plan to take this free time to focus on self care while also staying productive, as there’s always work to be done.

This past weekend I had to pleasure to complete my third Europe tour. Being that my schedule is somewhat limited due to my day job, this trip only consisted of two gigs. The first gig in Foligno, Italy was initially booked at the infamous Serendipity Club, a club that has hosted the likes of Jeff Mills and Little Louie Vega. As with the climate of today’s club culture, the venue unfortunately is having permit issues which I was told is in the works of being resolved. That being said, the promoters were able to find another venue and promoter to join forces with so that the event could still take place, and for that I was very gracious.

It was my first time going to Italy, and it really was a shame that my time there was so limited. That’s one of the crazy aspects of DJing- you travel the world yet sometimes there’s only enough time for dinner and the gig. It is definitely a blessing when you get those opportunities to have an extra day or two to be a tourist or whatever…that’s also when you start blowing your gig money though, so sometimes its best to simply get in and get out. DJ tours are nothing but business trips. People from the outside may look at it as a party or vacation, which I guess can sometimes be true, but for the most part you are working. You are working with your booking agency, different promoters, drivers, assistants, you are following itineraries, etc…it’s not rocket science, but you do need to be responsible to make sure you are on point and not missing flights or being late for pick-ups, dinner’s and what not.

Although Italy was mostly work I did get to experience an amazing homemade Italian dinner at DJ Ralph’s home made by his mother. I won’t lie, I don’t remember the name of half the things we ate lol, but it truly was a lovely spread. Different types of pastas, beefs, vegetables and breads, paired with a crisp white wine. As we all sat at the table dining I couldn’t help but to just smile. To myself I’m thinking “like damn, my ass is really out here in Italy”! It felt great, and honestly a vision that I had always had of my life. Me off in some distant land or country exploring, growing culturally, and living my best damn life…and here I was doing it…doing it again for that matter as I’ve been to Europe a few times now. I hate that I never shared my first experiences in Europe, but I always get the feeling that people are drawn to me over there because they can feel just how happy and excited I am to be there…it’s somewhat of a “soul glow”, if you will.

With DJ Soch at BMPdischi in Foligno, Italy.

I had two DJ appearances in Italy, one at cafe/record shop called BPMdischi, and the other at a club called Cantiere 21. The cafe appearance was first and was really fun, I had a great time playing records with DJ  Soch, a local hero in Foligno. This was the first tour I decided to pack records along with me on, and I am so glad that I did. I’m not really one to partake in the vinyl vs. digital debate, but I will say that I do feel a bit more accomplished now that I’m more comfortable playing records out and about. I am still majority a digital DJ, but I made the commitment early this year to start playing and buying more vinyl, and I have successfully acted upon it. I think it’s important to keep growing as an artist or creative, and I love being able to bring something new to the table. I get asked about production a lot, which I’m sure I’ll dive into at some point, but for right now I’m simply focused on being the dopest DJ I can be, and of course on continuing to grow this phenomenon called “Underground & Black”.



After completing two gigs on basically no sleep in Italy, it was time to head to London for SecretSundaze. The journey from Foligno to the airport in Rome was two hours that I took full advantage of for sleep. I literally felt like I closed my eyes, opened them and was suddenly at the airport lol. Those early airport trips after a gig are seriously brutal. That’s the behind the scenes shit y’all don’t see about the “glamorous DJ life” lol. Luckily when working with good promoters and agencies you get great seats on flights as well as priority boarding. I sat my black ass in 2A and dozed off for another couple of hours then woke up in one of my favorite cities, London!

Ciao, Italy! ❤


As I approached arrivals there stood the well dressed driver holding the “Ash Lauryn” sign. I so wanted to take a pic but had to act natural so I opted not to put him on blast lol. He grabs my bag and escorts me to a Mercedes Van equipped with lots of extra space for me to sprawl out on. It was another almost two hour journey from London Gatwick Airport to London, so this was another opportunity to sneak in some rest. Working with legendary people/promoters like SecrectSundaze I knew I would be well taken care of, and realized this even more as we arrived at the posh hotel I’d be staying in. I check in, get my keys and head to my room. When I arrived at the door(s) to the room, I thought it was a mistake, as I’m thinking this wasn’t a hotel room, yet a small event space. To my surprise the key worked, and I walk in to what appears to be a small apartment. The room was so lovely, I really was in awe! This was definitely not your typical Euro tiny ass hotel room lol, but a suite. After all the traveling it felt so amazing to have this space to myself for a bit. Staying true to DJ fashion though, I only had 2 1/2 hours till my DJ set.

Pre gig selfie in London.

I arrived at Oval Space a few minutes after 5pm as I’m wrapping up my conversation with the taxi driver who knew all about SecretSudanze and house music…lol typical London stuff! As I walk into the DJ booth I instantly feel as if I’m inside of some sort of spaceship…all I saw was gear upon gear and knobs upon knobs. At that point I felt kinda glad to be playing first inside as I truly needed a moment to get my bearings with it all. People forget that I’ve only been doing this DJ stuff on a professional level for a little under 3 years now, so I definitely don’t know how to do it all! After about the first 30 minutes it felt like smooth sailing, and lot’s of people from outside started to come inside to vibe with me. I also made a new friend with a fellow DJ called Helena Star who came out to support me and it made me feel so good to have a woman there supporting me though it all. Giles and James of SecretSundzae are honestly some the kindest souls, and I was very drawn to their warm energy. I recall telling Giles just how happy and in shock I was to be up there playing music at their legendary gathering. I never imagined some of these things happening to me actually happening, and I swear sometimes I just have to pinch myself to make sure its all real.

The “spaceship” aka DJ Booth at Secretsundaze.

I got some serious partying and dancing on after my set, and had lot’s of people approach with kind words, which also turned into emails and dm’s the following day thanking me for the music. I do not say this to boast or brag, but simply to explain how lovely it feels to connect with people through music. Music is the single most important thing in my life, and to know that I’m doing it right, and in a way that touches people’s hearts and souls gives me purpose. While I was playing a woman handed me a note that read I’m her inspiration, and this too gives me purpose. I often have friends or peers tell me that I inspire them, and it so powerful, as hearing those words in return inspires me. I too have those that I look up to and admire and if we all can continue to be positive and uplift one another I think this music stuff can be great.

  Sweet note from a fan during my set. 

SecretSundaze was by far one of the biggest/best parties I’ve ever played, and I was in love with the diversity and energy of the crowd. At one point there had to have been at least 10 black women all in the DJ booth dancing to Marcellus then Joe- it was so beautiful! Thank you from the bottom of my heart to the SecretSundaze crew for giving me the opportunity to share the music I love, while also sharing a bill with legendary act’s like Joe Claussell and Marcellus Pittman-both of whom I got meet and chat briefly with. Completing this gig was truly an accomplishment of my career, and I have no doubt that things will only be up from here.

Myself, Giles, and Helena Star backstage at Oval Space.

I’m back in the states now gearing up for Detroit where I’ll be hosting my very first Movement Festival Weekend event. The event came together seamlessly and with every passing day I get a little more excited and equally nervous. I do know that it is going to be something special, and it is my hope that this will turn into an annual thing, so please come out, and please support black music! Since I started this blog a couple years ago I have become familiar and acquainted with so many young black people involved in the realm of underground dance music, and that mere fact gives me hope. When I started Underground & Black, I was fearful that the culture of this music was slipping away from us, but as of late I do feel like there is some serious reclamation going on, and to that I can only smile. There is still lots of work to be done, and of course the usual bullshit white washed politics of this music, but I think we’re up to something good. Even with this platform and U&B Radio show, I feel like I’ve gotten people’s attention, and that was one of my purposes. I want/ed people to know that I’m a black woman involved in dance music who is proud of our cultures contributions, roots and sound, and will stop at nothing to preserve it. I now know that I’m not alone on this, and plan to keep pushing as will all of us!

Forever doing it for the culture!

See you in Detroit.

-Ash ❤





Underground & Black Top 10 Records of 2018

As the year comes a close there’s no denying  that there was a lot of great music that came out these past 12 months. The state of dance music is often questionable in this day, but coming across quality music that captures the true essence of the sound and culture we come from is always refreshing. The music featured in this piece is music that I held close throughout the year, and will continue to hold close moving into 2019. Black music is still as relevant as it ever was, and I feel so honored to be able to express myself through this music. As the “end of year list” antics commence, I just want to say that I’m grateful to have a platform that I can use to shine some more light on these amazing artists with. Much love and respect to those who continue to innovate and inspire!


#fortheculture #undergroundandblack 

1. Patrice Scott- Moments and Concepts (Sistrum Recordings)

As many of you already know, Patrice is by far my favorite producer, and 2018 saw him turn in some show stopping work. Starting out the year with a coveted release on Sounds Of The City, followed by his epic remix of Alton Miller’s “All the little things”, Moments and Concepts (below) on his Sistrum imprint, and most recently, the “Powder Fresh” EP on NYC’s Second Hand Records. This my friends, is true soulful, deep house, and I’m saying this now, “Be Free”, is the deep house track of the year- straight church vibes! Patrice has been humbly and steadily on the incline for many years now, and its time to show this man some respect! True Detroit royalty that deserves just as much shine as the rest of em. #realright


2. Stefan Ringer- FWM 001 (FWM)

Stefan is no stranger to the scene, and has been doing his thing in Atlanta and throughout North America for a minute now. After releasing some prized EP’s on labels like NDATL, CGI, and Argot, he decided to step up to the plate and start a label of his own. “FWM” dropped its first release by Ringer in August 2018,  and features summer  favorites like “Wanna Be Bad”, and “Southside”. All five tracks go hard, and you can’t lose with this one in your record bag or playlist. Keep an eye out for what’s next from this Atlanta staple who has proved consistent over time. #iwannabebad


3. Alton Miller- All Things Good EP (Waella’s Choice)

I was lucky enough to build a relationship with some of the folks behind Dimensions Festival this past year, which included Andy Lemay, who runs a called label Waella’s Choice. This is the label behind my next pick, Alton Miller’s “All Things Good EP”, which features what I like to call “grown and sexy” house. These are definitely not your peak time rave tracks, yet more so, your feet in sand, hair in the wind type of tracks. In terms of the dance floor; tracks you can two step with your lover to. “In The D” is by far my favorite, and feels like a little taste of South Africa and Detroit mixed into one. #grownfolksmusic


4. Waajeed- From The Dirt (Dirt Tech Reck)

Waajeed is another artist who I’ve mentioned quite frequently in the past, and rightfully so. After the success of last years “Shango EP”, he stayed busy in 2018 DJing throughout Europe, Asia, the US, and beyond. He also premiered his first live show at Good Room in Brooklyn back in May. On November 9th, Waajeed dropped his first solo, full length LP “From The Dirt” on his label Dirt Tech Reck, that includes 10 perfectly hand crafted tracks with each a style their own. According to Waajeed, Dilla’s basement in his childhood home was the birthplace for their discovery of un-quantized beats, and that its reflected in “My Fathers Rhythm”-my favorite track on the album. #strength


5. Steven Julien- Bloodline (Apron) 

London’s Steven Julian, aka Funkineven dropped his sophomore album “Bloodline” in April on his Apron imprint, which pays tribute to his family roots. According to Julien, his drum programming (which is extremely impressive on this release) isn’t coming from himself, but from “a long line of ancestors, that includes rhythm from tribes in Africa and natives from the Caribbean.” “Bloodline” and “IDK” are my two favorite tracks on this one, and I also want to note that I really appreciate the imagery of this album, which showcases pictures of what appear to be a young Julien and his family. In reference to music, I recognize the importance and pride in paying homage to ones roots. #rolandtr808


6. Kai Alce- Back in this sh!t (NDATL)

Kai Alce’s NDATL records celebrated 10 years in 2018, and what better what to celebrate than with all the amazing music that debuted on the label this year. With releases from Andres, DJ Spinna, and Alce and himself, NDATL had a pretty successful year. “Back In this Sh!t” dropped in April 2018, and I had a nice time playing these tracks everywhere from Berlin, to NYC, to Atlanta. Posted Below, “Jam Tight” is described as a “Detroit flavored burner”, and I’d have to agree. My favorite memory of this track is when I dropped it at Paloma Bar in Berlin, and DJ Amir came running up to me like “damnnn, who is this!!?” I was obliged to let him know it was our friend Kai Alce. Cheers to another 10 years of one of my favorite labels, NDATL. #lifesgoodafterasession


7. Ladymonix- BC I Want To (Frizner Electric)

Next up we have the debut EP from Detroit’s Ladymonix, titled “BC I Want To”, on her Frizner Electric imprint, which she also debuted this year. Its great to see fellow women out here doing their thing, and Monica made some nice moves over the year, including starting a residency at Detroit’s beloved Motor City Wine. As soon as I heard these tracks I fell in love, and they all got major play in my sets throughout the year. “BC I want to”  is “a deep and sensual body mover, anchored by empowering vocal samples that make no apologies”, and my favorite, “In Flight”, is “a soaring track that blends the energy of an evening into the power of the night.” Much love to Monica for being a continued force of the scene, and I look forward to seeing what she and Frizner Electric have in store for 2019! #bcshewantsto


8. K15- Be Glad You Create Anything (WotNot Music) 

K15, a man known for deepness, dropped “Be Glad You Create Anything” on WotNot Music this year, and not surprisingly, sold out quickly. As Juno nicely puts it, “Be Glad You Create Anything”, is “a sparkling, mid-tempo shuffler that wraps darting, Kaidi Tatham style jazz-funk synth motifs around loose and languid beats and a suitably warm and attractive bassline.” “Communion”, my favorite track on the EP, was included in my June episode of “Underground and Black”, and was received with open arms. This is another person who has stayed consistent over the years, and I’m always looking forward to what next. #createanything


9. Kaidi Tatham- In my Life (2000 Black) 

After releasing his incredible LP “Its A World Before You”, on First Word Records back in June, Kaidi Tatham returned to 2000black, with the EP “In my Life”. “Freddie Can’t Run Away”, is a nice fusion track, and showcases the true creativity of his artistry. “But You Bring It Up” is a warm jazzy track that features vocals from Nadine Charles . The EP covers everything from jazz, to boogie, to funk and was definitely a necessary purchase this year!   #inmylife


10. Wbeeza- The OD EP (Troy Town) 

I’ve been a big fan of Wbeeza’s for a while now, and was so excited to learn he was dropping a new record after a 3 year hiatus. He is revered as a 1st generation pioneer of what has become affectionately known as the “Peckham Sound”. The 3 track EP features a mix of sounds from Techno, to Deep House, to Bounce. My favorite of the 3, “Bizzle Boogie”, is a “equal parts gritty, Midwest-influenced bounce track.” I included this track in my Truants mix, and it got more than a few ID request’s! #southlondon

Laying Low

Fall is officially here and its time to grind. I’ve spent the past few months promoting and staying busy, but as of late have had an extreme drive to get back into whats really important to me, the music- not the hype. Being actively involved in social media for years of ones life can often be extremely distracting, and not to mention stressful. I know we’ve all been there; scrolling social media aimlessly, feeling sorry for ourselves while seeing other people “living their best lives” and what not. It can all be quite overwhelming at times, and its totally okay to take a few steps back to focus on your damn self for a while. I honestly don’t know how healthy it could be to know peoples every move, gig, setback, or milestone anyway. I suppose its all about finding a healthy balance, which goes for many things in life. Sometimes I get frustrated about the state of things in regards to music, yet can only appreciate the frustration as it often makes me want to work harder and smarter. Whats also important to me is this here blog, and what will come of it as time progresses. I want to feature and celebrate all the amazing black people contributing to the culture, and I will try my best to do that here, and though my NTS radio slot.

I’ve gotten a few emails and requests for some of the tracks on my Truants mix, so I decided to drop the track list here. I really appreciate everyone who has taken the time to listen or reach out to me personally to tell me they enjoyed it. This mix includes music from some very close to me, some I hold in very high regard, and some who stay inspiring me musically. I never intentionally plan to record a mix that features about 90% black artists, but as I mentioned in the interview, black music is what resonates most with my soul, and I think its important that this music be embraced and played as much as possible. Please do not tell me its not about race, because many will never experience the joy and freedom that I feel as a black woman playing black music that was born in exact same city as myself. Playing black music in a country that doesn’t want me here, yet and still doing it with a smile. Knowing all of that, and being able to play this music freely not only in America, but across the world is a phenomenon that I will forever recognize. Black people, and black culture has had a profound influence on the world, and frankly, the world would be stale without it. Support black music, black people, and never forget the roots of this gift to all of us- post the David Guetta article, you see how easy it is for history to be misconstrued.

  1. Cromie- Informal Path (Stefan Ringer Remix)
  2. Atjazz- Facet of Jazz
  3. Karizma- Tech This Out
  4. Byron The Aquarius- Nights in Jakarta
  5. Javonntte- Sweet Midnight Dub
  6. Patrice Scott- Movin It
  7. King Britt, Oba Funke- Uzoamaka (Nuno Dos Santos Bonus Beats)
  8. Submission- Women Beat Their Men (Celvin’s Peak Hour Dub)
  9. Patrice Scott- Be Free
  10. Mr. G.- My Farda’s Father (Sound Bouy Dub)
  11. A Made Up Sound- Rework
  12. Stefan Ringer, Kai Alce- Simple Confusion
  13. WBeeza- Bizzle Boogie
  14. Waajeed- Strength (Jon Dixon Remix)
  15. Peven Everett- Feelin You In And Out
  16. DJ Aakmael- Spreadsomluv
  17. Son Of Sound- Please Stand By And Move
  18. Steven Julien- Bloodline

Every Day Ain’t The Same…

Hey there, its me! The girl who deleted her last post because she wasn’t content with the way it turned out. Um yeah- Although well written, I realize it was  “just one of those days”, and that maybe I shouldn’t put that type of energy out there. Rewind to that day, which was about a week ago, and I was feeling extremely insecure and uncertain of the future. That is still true in some aspects, as we all have our insecurities and uncertainties in life, yet here I am today with a much better outlook on things. I went from being jobless with only one gig booked for the entire month of October, to getting two job offers and 4 gig opportunities all in less than a weeks time. It actually made me feel quite stupid as I was freaking out over what ended up to be nothing but overthinking and overanalyzing. What that situation taught me though, is to simply have patience, because you never know what the future has in store.

I also deleted my last post because I didn’t want to seem entitled, or ungrateful. I know there are tons of people who would kill to do some of the things I’ve had the opportunities to do in regards to music and DJing. I do think the difference between me and a lot of folks though, is that I made a conscious decision to not simply choose the DJ path as a novelty, but as a career. I’m still figuring that part of my life out, and even though I’m starting a new day job next week, my ultimate goal is to still be a full time DJ touring the world. I don’t think those aspirations are illegitimate, but I think a lot of people are fearful of even attempting to pursue that path. I’m saying all of this to say that this is the reason why I’m so hard on myself about gigs and what not, because I want to do this full time. You know, like the new catch phrase “booked and busy”, thats what I’m trying to be! That being said, I decided to move forward with the day job mainly for financial reasons, oh and then theres the health benefits and all.

This new chapter is going to be an interesting one, but I’m up for the challenge. I still have my weekends to myself, so I at least will still be able to do stateside stuff when opportunities arise. One of the main aspects of life that I’m starting to respect more is simply putting in work to get to where you want to be, no matter what it takes. Sure I may not be able to sleep in anymore, or take extended vacations, but trust me, when its all said and done I’ll get that back. I had a nice 7 month break of traveling and basically doing whatever the hell I want, so now its time to get back disciplined. To be honest, I’ve never really been the hardest worker, and I’m still learning how to be. On the contrary, I’m all about enjoying life and taking time for family, friends, and travel, so don’t worry- I’ll never lose sight of that, as its who I am as a person.

Speaking of hard work, I’d like to mention my recent Truants Mix that dropped yesterday. I recorded 3 versions of it, and absolutely loved the 3rd one, minus a little slip up during a transition, and one track that I simply wasn’t feeling, so I recorded it one more time hoping for perfection. I can’t say perfection was the outcome, but I can say that I am in love with the mix, and worked hard on it. I’m proud of the outcome, and have been following the Truants Blog for a couple years now after I obsessed over Mr. G.’s Truancy Volume from 2016. As some of you know,  I got really anti guest mix for a while, but not for a second was I going to turn down this opportunity. Something I strongly believe in is quality over quantity-so whether than do 20 regular ass guest mixes, I rather do 3 quality and meaningful mixes. I played the music I love, and I hope I got my point across. What’s cool about DJing is that its an opportunity to show the world just how unique you are. The music I play is a reflection of my soul, and I hope you feel me when you hear it.

Moving into my second year as a DJ, I don’t think I could ask for more. Trust me, I’m not rich, and I haven’t all the way “made it”, but I’m on my way. My experiences in Europe were incredible, and I will never forget a second of it. From playing with Josey Rebelle and Peggy Gou at Dimensions Festival, to being on the guest list at Berghain, to playing after Fred P. at Tresor- it was all magical! The weekend before last in NYC and DC was also amazing. The DC gig was posh, and gave me a taste of what this life could really be like. Car service, dope hotel, quality food and drink (which was all free btw), I mean damn, it was so cool! And not to take away from NYC at Le Bain with Stefan, bc we had so much fun. The summer was filled with so many memories, so many lovely people, and so many positive experiences that have left me forever changed- playing the music that I love is something I deeply cherish.

I’m sure this post isn’t as compelling as the one I deleted was, but these words feel much better. Theres nothing wrong with being transparent, or “keeping it real”, but this post is real too, perhaps even realer, because I am actually happy in many aspects. I have a lot to be grateful for, as do many of you, so thats what I’m choosing to focus on right now. As humans, we all have those days when we are down, and thats okay, but when you’re down, take some time to think about all the things we have to smile about, because best believe theres someone out there who’s got it way worse than you.

In closing I just want to say thank you again for all the love and support! As a black woman trying to navigate in a world that often doesn’t want to see us win, I’m making my mark on this earth and that wouldn’t be possible without so many of you! To the readers, listeners, believers, dancers, and supporters, I appreciate you!!!!!

-Ash ❤

Checking In…


Feeling like I don’t really know where to begin, but its grey outside and raining like hell  which is pretty fitting for today’s mood. I’m not sure what it is, but as busy as I’ve been w/gigs this past month I still sit here feeling somewhat stagnant, one reason being that I haven’t been updating the blog as much as I’d like to. Things are happening, and I have things to look forward to, but I’m still frustrated. Not looking for sympathy, just stating the real because I think from the outside looking in things can often appear to be different. As much as I love this blog, I sometimes find myself wondering if I even want share so much. I know that there are people out there who enjoy it though, and even some who find it inspiring, so I’m going to keep pushing. It can be confusing sometimes-trying to figure out how to gauge all the projects and ideas I have inside.

July was a busy month and I got the opportunity to play some great events and meet lots of lovely people. Of course one event that sticks out was this past weekend in San Diego with Rick Wilhite for the Bouquet series, an outdoor event on the pier with the San Diego bay as the backdrop- it was an absolutely gorgeous view and day. During my set I truly felt in sync with the environment and people around me. It was my second time playing with Rick, who is an inspiration, and friend of mine for some years now. I still have tons of mix CD’s he used to give me when I’d come back home to the D to visit. As I’ve mentioned in the past, moments and opportunities like this bring things full circle in so many ways. I was a bit anxious in the beginning- I mean Keith Worthy, Patrice Scott among others were all in attendance. They are my friends, and I know they aren’t judging me by any means, but I still feel that fire within me to perform well in front of people that I look up to. The set in my opinion went perfect, and I was over whelmed by the response after- everyone said they loved it, and that made me feel so great. Being able to connect with people through music is a beautiful experience, and most definitely a joy in my life.

I got to play several shows in Atlanta last month as well, which was cool because I was starting to feel like one of those DJ’s who gets booked everywhere but in their hometown…lol. Which is definitely “a thing” in the DJ world. My only complaint about these hometown gigs though is getting paid about 80% less for my services. Budgets in Atlanta are pretty small and I understand that, so I sometimes still take these gigs because I love what I do, and most of the time it doesn’t feel like work. It is a crazy contrast though- to go from being this important headliner getting free flights and meals, to just a regular bloke getting paid the bare minimum I think a DJ should get. In the end, I suppose all the gigs balance each other out, and more than anything I’d like to keep touring.  Not just for the money, but because it really is fun and rewarding. On the contrary, it can also be tiring and not as fun as you expected-but thats all apart of the game of course.

I’m not sure why I’ve been self loathing so much lately, but I guess its simply because I’d like to be more productive than I am currently. It’s been hard to be productive though because sometimes I just don’t feel motivated, or sometimes I’m simply distracted. Distracted by things that don’t deserve to be distractions. It’s so easy to get caught up with bullshit  these days, and I’m really just trying to stay focused. Honestly, I can’t say I’m trying my best though, which is why when I woke up this morning I made the commitment to finish this blog post or die (lol…kidding.) Completing tasks makes me feel good, and is a reminder that I can do whatever I want to do as long as I take the time and effort to actually do it…and so can you. There’s a lot of expansion that I’d like to happen with Underground and Black, and although it hasn’t happened as quickly as I’d like, I still have a dream and a vision. Life in this day and age is far from easy, and I commend everyone just doing whatever they can do to stay happy and afloat. I don’t have all the answers, but just keep working towards whatever it is you want to do/be in this life. Even on days when you feel discouraged, just keep grinding.

I’m off to NYC then Europe at the end of the month. August 24 I’ll be playing at Nowadays with Olive T. and Turtle Bugg which I am really looking forward to. Ya’ll know I’m all about the preservation of black people in dance music, and this event will be just that. From there I’ll return to beloved Berlin for two weeks that will include some soon to be announced gigs. I’m not sure what the future has in store for post Berlin and as fall creeps in, but I just hope to stay busy. I’d also like to stay growing-which I know is inevitable.

I promise to check back in soon, and stay tuned for the first Underground and Black podcast coming before month’s end.


Ash ❤